I know I've said that I love praise.
But sometimes I wish I wasn't the best. Or better.
Sometimes I wish that being just good or even "okay" was enough.
And that seems to start off with all of things that I'm wishing about.
There's something magical about this time of year for me... the fir trees in the house with glittering lights, the frost on my car in the morning, the glistening snow covered ground when I head out first thing in the morning, the gingerbread hot chocolate that I get. The magic seems to tell me that anything is possible. Wishes do come true. There will be a "happily ever after."
But with all that possibility filling the air, my mind seems to think that I need to recommit to all of my goals from years' past. But I have changed. My life circumstance has changed. These are not excuses. It is simply fact. Things just aren't as easy to fit in when you work 45 hours a week and do 10 hours of school a week, and want to get sleep, and see friends, and read books. But that wish list keeps growing:
*Losing weight
*getting tickets to the Christmas concert and maybe having enough for everyone who wants them.
*finishing my novel
*playing the guitar
*finishing my books
*finishing school
*finishing sewing, crocheting projects
*learning to knit
*going on a date (yep... we're back into a lull... March was the last time I was on a date.)
*laughing more often
*crying a little less
*enjoying the winter season (Co-worker Dave is planning a ski day. He means for me to practice before that day...)
*wanting a trip to the beach (it's almost been a year since I had a VG donut and walked along So. Carlsbad State Beach)
*making plans for trips to Disneyland, DC, and Boston next year (I want to go. I'm tired of waiting for an opportunity to see the things I'm dying to see)
Maybe one day soon I'll have a minute to stop and think about these wishes and make some serious plans so that they happen. But for now, I'll curl up tonight with my laptop, my homework, and a cup of hot chocolate, and be grateful that this is the time of year that fills me with the sweet whisperings that "Anything is possible", and that "I will get what I wish for".